Six years ago

At approximately 7:45pm PST I had my divination with Hemet.

<Nisut_AUS> You have a Mother and Three Beloveds, Nekhtet!

At the time I was completely overwhelmed with having three Beloveds, heh.

I re-read the text of my divination, and there’s a lot in there that I had forgotten that is powerful. It struck me again how profound and meaningful the experience was.

Six years ago I came home, into the open arms of a loving community, and into a new relationship with my gods.

Dua Aset! Nekhtet!

Pardon the dust…

I just finished imported my entries from my LiveJournal site, so the links in the entries are still pointing to the wrong places. Please bear with me as I clean up the entries and put in cuts.

Bawy Year & Nebthet

The Bawy Year has been interesting for me. I’ve gotten to know Heru-wer a lot better; in fact I’m surprised at how much He’s around. Set not so much, but we seem to have an understanding that if I work on what I need to work on, He’ll be satisfied.

Heru-wer has been on me for lessons that apparently my Mother is not getting through to me with. Truth be told, Aset has seemed quite distant this (Kemetic) year; Heru-wer, Nut, and Sekhmet have been at the forefront of things for me. Once this would have panicked me, but now I think I can take it in stride.

Heru-wer and Sekhmet are teaching me about strength of character/being strong/being who I am and prioritizing my life to be what I want it to be. Things have really come together over the past few weeks. I really started to ‘hear’ Them when I learned They sent me the netjeri. I definitely feel the birds when I’m being strong, and when I waver. I was told they were sent to ”keep me safe’. Originally my definition of “safe” was safe from physical harm, but I think they’re keeping me safe to grow, be strong, and be myself.

On just this side of sleep, when I’m more likely to get a message from Netjer Heru-wer told me He has been around to teach me to “use the backbone your Mother gave you” and “be more of Aset’s child”. I think I know what He means, heh.

Since Nebthet became a new Beloved, She nearly faded right off my radar. I was starting to have doubts about the divination; did She say yes simply because I asked? However, a few weeks ago I had what had to be one of the most intense experiences ever…from Her.

I remember Hemet describing Aset and Nebthet as “Super Intense Goddess #1 and Super Intense Goddess #2″, and yeah, Nebthet is “super intense”.

Things Wesir said last night & things Aset said this afternoon

I asked Wesir before falling asleep last night “why did Aset tell me to ask You about Odin?”

“We know about death and changes. You’re a child of changes. You can’t sit still. Everything has to change, or at least come around again. We both sacrificed for something more, and you have, and you will again. But there’s a better way that what you do sometimes. Odin can teach you some of his heka . (He didn’t use the work heka, it was something unintelligible.) You don’t have to. But He is there.“

And, on unrelated notes:

“We’re not just about death and dying. Cycles of life, changes, and growth are Our kingdom. We have more to show you than death.”

“Listen for a message from My Mother…She carries truth.”

Aset said:

“You want to have knowledge even when it’s going to hurt you. Truly, you want to know everything just for the sake of knowing. If you accept responsibility for the pain it may bring you, then you may have it. Don’t ask unless you want to know. Don’t ask if you can’t bear the burden without sharing.”

Upon thinking about my Ren:

“I know your true name. I know everything worth knowing. It’s Mine to keep for now. There may come a time when you need to have it, and you know who to go to for assistance.”

I think They’ve been more talkative in the last year than ever before in my life.

Year 15 thoughts

Obligatory year-planning post.

It’s odd/fitting that Heru-Wer is one of the Names of the Year. Ever since His saq, when He told me one of the bird-netjeri is from Him I’ve been getting to know Him a little better.And Set, well: I remember my terror at contemplating Him as one of my Beloveds when I was a beginner. But now I’m not scared of Him (as much!) anymore. I respect Him, He did threaten to “kick my ass” the other day.“If you won’t listen to Her, and you won’t listen to Our brother, trust Me; I’ll pay you a visit and kick your ass myself.”

Then He reminded me about His message from before (and Heru-Wer’s): respect.

It’s about you getting it, not just giving it. If they won’t give it then take it. Serves ‘em right.”

Uh, yes Sir!

This all happened while cleaning out a kennel at work. Such timing.

Anyways: plans

• Get the shrine room set up (yes - I have my own little room)
• Figure out a time to get W’ab training
• Do more senut
• Do more sau stuff
• Do more fedw
• Attend more fellowship stuff (online & off if possible)
• No more Beloveds! (heh.)
  
• Talk to my Akhu more
• Instead of bitching about what I don’t like, do something about it or at least try to set an example

Dream

I’ve been casually interested in Asatru for awhile, but the pull to it waxes and wanes. Last night I had a weird dream, that Odin wants….to talk to me, I think.

It started out with an old man who kept telling me “you are called to Odin’s Rite” and “you are called to the Odinrite”. I have no idea if there is a such thing, however.

There was also a raven that kept flying around my head. I said “you’re from Nebthet or Yinepu, They send me crows, too”. It just looked at me sideways and shook its head.

Aset came (as a Voice, not Herself) and said “I speak as the Amentet, seek out Odin and learn what He has to say to you. The raven is not from Us.” I said that I was Her follower and didn’t want to go to someOne else and She said “there’s nothing that can undo that, you are Mine first, then Theirs [meaning my Beloveds; somehow I knew this] forever. Speak to the King if you won’t go to Odin.” I questioned: Hemet? “No. Speak to Wesir, He knows some of what Odin does.”

I woke up abruptly. It was so vivid.

Why would Odin want to talk to me? I think I’ll start with Wesir - I certainly know Him better.

It’s weird though, Odin isn’t one of the Norse deities that I’m most interested in.

Bizarre.

She shines

Di ronpet Aset Webenut!

O, Aset
The Great, God’s Mother, Lady of Philae,
God’s Wife, God’s Adorer, and God’s Hand,
God’s mother and Great Royal Spouse,
Adornment and Lady of Ornaments of the Palace.

Lady and desire of the green fields,
Nursling who fills the palace with her beauty,
Fragrance of the palace, mistress of joy,
Who completes her course in the Divine Place.

Rain-cloud that makes green the fields when it descends,
Maiden, sweet of love, Lady of Upper and Lower Egypt,
Who issues orders among the divine Ennead,
According to whose command the One rules.

Princess, great of praise, lady of charm,
Whose face enjoys the trickling of fresh myrrh.

Great Speckled Hawk

Meeting Heru-Wer was amazing.

He answered the questions I’ve had about the two bird-netjeri that Sekhmet told me I have with me at the 2005 Coronation Retreat. He said one was from Him (?!) and the other from “the Red Lady” (Sekhmet). According to Him, they keep me safe.

I thought they were from Aset and Sekhmet, but that was just based on speculation. I’ve never really been able to figure them out. They told me they were around to “make me happy”, but that was two years ago.

I don’t know why I have two netjeri, and why those Names in particular would send them. Sekhmet, I can understand, but Heru? Though I have been wanting to get to know Him better…maybe He wants to know me too?

I’ve been trying to do more to get to know netjeri again. As a kid I’m sure that I communicated with them all the time, naturally. I could always tell the “personality” of trees, plants, flowers, hills, big rocks, ponds, etc. I spoke to them all the time. It’s something that I’ve lost the ability to do as easily as I once did.

Last time we took the dogs for a walk through the forest, my old friend Hemlock tree greeted me.
“Here we are…here we are…we don’t go away.”

I know, they didn’t go away. I did. They’re still there; I just need to bring myself to that place again.

January 22

For the last few years that I can remember, The Goddess of Heaven Goes South to the Road has fallen on my birthday. Now, I’m too mathematically-challenged and disorganized to figure out the calendar for 1979, but my best guess is that it’s likely I would have been rootnamed for Sopdet (Jan 22), Aset (Jan 19 “Aset is awakened by Ra”), Nit (Jan 20 “Feast of Nit”), or Heru-Shu, Amun, Ptah, Victory [Mekhir Festival], & Hethert (Jan 23; all except Hethert’s are 10-days feasts).

Or, my thinking could be completely flawed.

It’s just idle curiosity, but every year when I get the January calendar I check Who is in festival on my birthday

Establishing the Celestial Cow

Then this god said to Nut:
I placed myself on thy back to be elevated; what then?
So said he, and Nut became the sky.
The majesty of this god begged:
Be far from them and elevate me, that I may see (them) .
And the On High came into being.
Then the majesty of this god looked into her, and she said:
Make me into a multitude!
And stars came into being.
The majesty of this god, let him live , be safe and in good health, said:
Peaceful is the field here!
And Sekhet-Hotep (the Field of Peace) came into being.
Oh, I shall plant green herbs in it!
And Sekhet-Aaru (the Field of Reeds) came into being.

From the Book of the Heavenly Cow.

Today is the festival of Establishing the Celestial Cow, which is a festival of joy and thanksgiving. It marks the departure of Ra as King on Earth after the rebellion of man and their near-destruction at the hands of the Eye of Ra (Sekhmet), Hethert’s return to Kemet after Her wanderings in Nubia, and mankind’s fight against the enemies of Ra.

He ascended Nut as Mehet-Weret (the Great Flood; Nut as the Celestial Cow) beyond the sky. Nut, in turn becomes the vault of the sky. Because Ra has withdrawn from Earth, mankind is now able to die, so Ra created the Field of Peace and the Field of Reeds as an eternal afterlife for humanity, and a reward for fighting His enemies.

It’s a day to give thanks, gifts, and offerings. And of course to drink beer to Nut and Hethert: the two great Celestial Cows!