A year without senut

Year 15 is over, and I did not do senut once. Not one time. Oh, I prayed and offered and did other things. I even bought a new shrine cabinet and a new main shrine statue.

I described this past year’s lessons as “boot camp for the body, mind, and soul” in my livejounral, and I still think that’s a pretty apt description. I learned some hard (and valuable lessons), and had more contact with Netjer than I ever had before.

I’m terrible for trying to keep things (Names, concepts) in boxes. It’s hard for me not to, and I think interacting with the Names outside of senut and its rituals helped with that. I don’t feel guilty, so much as I wonder what other intense experiences I’ve missed out on,

Over Wep Ronpet I reconsidered becoming w’abet-Aset. Originally I was pretty gung-ho about it after becoming a Shemsu-Ankh, but I came to a decision (upon waking one morning) that I didn’t think I that I’m cut out to be a w’ab priest. I got out of bed, tripped, landed in front of my shrine and was given the message:

You WILL become a w’ab. Obey.

Ummm…okay? I felt held down. I think one of my sisters-in-Aset (Merit) has had at least one similar experience with Aset, but holy crap, I sure haven’t!  Well, until this. I verbally gave assent that I heard the message. I think it was a squeak.

I await your acquiescence.

Again, it wasn’t words words that I “heard”.I’m not sure what will happen to me when/if that happens.