I’ve been drawn to Egyptian gods and other pantheons from a young age; I remember finding the image of Isis protecting Tutankhamun’s canopic jars in an issue of National Geographic when I was in grade two that has stuck with me all through the years.
In my early twenties I called myself an Isian pagan and focused on the celebration and worship of Isis. Driven by a need to know her Egyptian roots I found the House of Netjer. After taking the Beginner’s Class I took vows to become a Shemsu and learn who my personal gods were and receive my Kemetic name. I was divined a Daughter of Aset (Isis), and Beloved of Hethert (Hathor), Wesir (Osiris), and Yinepu (Anubis). Later, both Nebet-het (Nephthys) and Nut (Nuit) claimed me as their Beloveds.
My Kemetic name is Asetwedjbai (Wedjbai for short) and means Aset turned me around.
In the last few years my thoughts and beliefs about the nature and existence of the divine have drastically changed. I’m now considered a Divined-Remetj.
I’m not sure that the divine exists, and if it does that it’s anything other than the universe. I think that gods may only exist as a way to express archetypes, and that by worshipping or praying to them we can embody the strength or skills of that deity. I’m still working on this. I’ve found it hard to become an atheist, but harder to believe in actual beings who can and do affect our lives.